Life can be so demanding. Sometimes I think "I only have two kids...why can't I catch a break?!" It isn't always so busy. Or is it? Life is good, but I'm looking forward to a break.
I think September often brings a rushed feeling. Days are getting shorter, and the weather starts to change. We savor our summers on the coast of Oregon, an when the rain starts to pour, the gloom sets in. When I was a kid, I loved the fall. September meant no more mowing the lawn and weeding the garden...and it meant that my birthday was near, along with Halloween, Thanksgiving, and Christmas! I loved hearing the rain outside, I loved the wind, I loved the cold, and I loved the dark days. Now that I'm "grown-up" and have a house, have land, and have kids, I savor every summer day. The reasons why are obvious. But, in case you are wondering, here's a few clues as to why...wet, hunting, holidays, sick, overflowing gutters, wood stove, more holidays, unfinished summer projects, school, too much TV, and mud...lots and lots of mud. By the way, I now loathe the dark days. Oh, to be a kid again.
Today, this week, next week. A million things to do. Just when I think I've got a full plate, I get another text...I get asked another favor...I get reminded of that thing I was supposed to do...I...I...I!! This has been my life lately. My birthday was last week...why is it that on my birthday I get asked to call people, go out with people, eat with people? I know why...but, really...why? Why can't they call me, bring me food, or babysit my kids so that I can go out by myself?!! LOL! Frankly, I had a lovely birthday. I digress...
And as I sit here, thinking of what I want to write next, my mind just races.
Yesterday, Adam sent me a text asking what our Saturday plans were and my already lit fuse almost reached the powder. "Why are you asking?!...because if you wanna make more plans, then the answer is an emphatic 'NO!'" Poor husband of mine. Really, he just longs to be home to do fun things with his family. There are many days I wish I could trade places with him. Yes, there are days I would just love to drive around a fancy new rental car with just the radio and the GPS to keep me company, spend several hours with adults, eat at lots of fancy restaurants, and enjoy countless evenings alone in a fancy hotel room. Ok, ok...I'll take my rose-colored glasses off. There is no perfect. And when you make a commitment to your husband, your kids, your life... you realize the grass isn't always greener on the other side.
The grass is green today, and it's on my side of the fence. It's just wildly overgrown.
I'm already kicking myself for taking the time to write this random post. When I started (it's now 8:22 PM), the kids were finishing up some school work, I was waiting for paint to dry, and waiting for Miss Evelyn to wake up from her nap. Now, as I type, the kids are talking to their daddy via "face time" and showing off their new Halloween costumes. I close my eyes and wish they were already ready for bed...but no, they still have baths to take, teeth to brush, and prayers to say. Every night I make a goal for bed. Goals are nice.
I still have a full night ahead of me...baby shower projects, birthday party planning, a few loads of laundry, and I MUST tidy up the kitchen before I go insane. Oh dear...8:42...gotta round up the kids. Nighty-night blog friends.
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